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I Don't Want To Lose You

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Title: I Don't Want To Lose You
Author: Chris400ad
Game: Mass Effect 2
characters/pairing: MShep, Miranda
Disclaimer: I don't own mass effect


The dark had always scared Miranda. Not being able to see, it was the unknown that scared her when she was trapped in the dark. She always had a plan, she knew what she wanted and how to get it, the unknown scared her. She planned everything, analyzed everything. Yet for the first time in her life she had done something she had never expected to happen. She had fallen in love. She had fallen for Commander John Shepard, Savoir of the Citadel, Hero of Humanity. He was the most selfless, caring man she had ever met and she loved him but it scared her.

She had never been loved by anyone before or loved another. She had always been alone, isolated, careful to never get too close to people. She had never opened up to anyone, yet here she lay, staring at the ceiling of a room that most defiantly was not her own. It was Shepard's. She had spent all her nights here since they had successfully destroyed the Collector base. But right now, in that exact moment, she didn't want to be here. A simple feeling clawed at the back of her mind, the feeling that had been around since the dawn of man: fear.

There was a reason she never got close to people, never. Her father had created her for his own selfish drives. The only reason she existed was to sate his lust for perfection, the insane lust that had created both her and her twin sister: Oriana. Miranda loathed the fact that every single one of her achievements was in some way linked to her genetic tailoring. Quite unlike the man who's arms were wrapped around her. He had accomplished so much down to his skill or leadership or on some occasion's sheer luck. But people believed in Shepard. He was a hero, pure and simple. He had his limits, he was only human, but those limits were far beyond most other peoples. He'd done the impossible twice, all in the name of fighting the Reapers.

Slowly she slipped out of Shepard's grip and swung herself out of bed. Her Cerberus uniform lay crumpled on the floor where she had abandoned it hours ago. Not that she was Cerberus any more. The Illusive Man had finally revealed his true colours. He had wanted to keep that base, preserve the sick, twisted technology that was housed within the base. Shepard had been right about Cerberus, everyone had. They were the terrorists people made them out to be but Miranda had been blinded by her loyalty, another mistake. The one thing she could take credit for were mistakes.

Miranda let herself fall onto the sofa and stared out of the window. Space drifted by, stars gleamed at her through the window. She had always loved stars, ever since Niket had taken her to an Astronomy lecture. Niket. Miranda missed him no matter how much she claimed otherwise. Niket had been the only to stick by her when she ran away from her father. But even he had deserted her when he had been bought by her father. Miranda had almost lost Oriana that day but at least she was safe. Even though Cerberus had known where she was Shepard had moved her to a place even Cerberus couldn't find. Combined with Liara T'Soni's help and that of his old N7 teammates Oriana was kept under constant watch and unaware that she was in any danger.

Now Oriana knew she had a sister, a sister that kept in regular contact and shared almost everything she could with her. Miranda finally had the chance to talk to her sister and not be the guardian angel that she had been for all those years.

It was all going to well, she knew that. In a small space of time she had fallen in love with the one man who loved her far more than she deserved. Her sister loved her and kept in contact. Miranda had helped saved billions upon billions of lives, she was happy and it was wrong. The Universe had never presented her this much good fortune, somewhere there would be a catch and she knew that somehow Shepard would be a part of that catch.

"Miri," Miranda turned and looked into the electric blue eyes of John Shepard. Those eyes, she could fall into them and easily never resurface. But the eyes that were usually full of love and warmth were now overwhelmed of concern. "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing," Miranda lied, she didn't deserve him. She didn't deserve any of this. She had grown up alone and she knew that somewhere along the line she would die alone.

"Miri, I know when you're lying." She heard the covers slide off of him and his footsteps on the cold floor. She still didn't turn, she couldn't. She didn't deserve him. "Let me in." He whispered his voice so close to her that she felt his breath on her neck. His voice cracked slightly, the emotion was almost tangible.

"I don't want to lose you," she said her voice so quiet that she didn't know if Shepard had heard her or not. Her heart hammered in her chest as the silence engulfed her. Shepard remained quite still, like a statue. Miranda could feel his breath on her neck as he stood behind her. Then slowly she felt his lips press against her neck.

"You won't, I promise." He said. "I love you, Miri. I'm not letting you go, not now, not ever." She looked at him then, dark eyes found light and she knew in that instant that John Shepard would never leave her. Not if he had anything to do with it. Maybe, just maybe, she did deserve him after all.
Miranda lets the one emotion she has been running from all her life get to her: fear. Hope you enjoy.
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CedroN7's avatar
Wow !! Epic !